A Prayer

I’m scared.

Terrified of the things I can’t change.

Burdened by the things I could

but didn’t.

But sustained by the things I can.

It’s those same things which are familiar to me-

Yes. This is something I have

a choice about.

God, my Father up in the Heavens,

hear my plea.

This has nothing to do with those things.

They are not truly important.

It has to do with those three people

I love fiercely and will miss terribly-

my family-

and all the rest of them that I don’t think

I can bear to leave.

I need them, Father.

I need them like I need the blood

running through my veins.

When I go to take a deep breath,

I’ll choke because they’re not there.

But You will be.

It’s going to be uphill, Father. I know that.

But give me new blood,

just the kind I need

to breathe life into my new world.

July 19, 2013